Stewart Cook/ABC via Getty
“I’m grieving the loss of him. I’m grieving the loss of the future that I really believed in and I’m grieving the loss of James,” she said, referring to Allio’s 7-year-old son with his late wife. “And I’m grieving the loss of safety that I felt with him for the first time. He was the first person that ever made me feel safe in a relationship, that made me feel like I was enough. And then that was taken away.”
ABC via Getty
“It’s really hard thinking back on the whole experience because it was a really beautiful trip,” the reality star continued. “I was so proud of myself. Michael took great care of me and it was a very, very love-filled weekend and I ended up being able to freeze eight eggs, which now I am just incredibly, incredibly grateful for, as I am now alone.”
Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.
“I wish I could actually articulate how that all felt or if I could separate what felt like the emotion or what felt like the hormones and stuff wearing off versus the, I don’t know,” she said. “There was just so much physical pain, I can’t really remember.”
“I’m just a person that has to feel everything,” the nurse said. “I love boldly and I’ll never be ashamed of that, but I’m very thankful for the girls that I work with. They have really just like rallied around me. And I’ve, you know, been making new friends in Cleveland and it’s really shown me that just how much good there is in my life because of people like you [Camardo] and friends and new friends. And thank God for work, having something to keep yourself busy.”
PEOPLE has reached out to Allio’s reps for comment.
“I don’t regret the love I gave for a second,” she wrote. “While these last couple months have been extremely difficult and painful for me, I am succeeding in finding moments of joy in building a new life in this city, regardless of how I came to it. I have been extremely invested in my job, which I love and I feel hopeful again to discover what the future holds for me.”
Allio told Tartick he, too, has been processing the breakup. “You mourn the loss, not of just that person and that friend in your life, but also the future that you had envisioned,” the single dad said. “And it’s to no fault of hers.”
“We both threw a lot into this relationship,” he added, “and it’s really awful when it doesn’t work out."
source: people.com
